Its been six month since I lost my job as an appeals and grievance coordinator for SCAN Health Plan. I honestly don’t know happened , perhaps it was my fault , but having a bad coworker who gets away with everything makes you think , hey if there keeping this person , no matter what I do they will still keep me. Boy was I wrong, I better, I should of handled the letter right away when I seen it , instead of playing dumb . I was over whelmed with so much work and the toxic environment caused me to just be plain lazy. I knew that this case was going to get me fired and it did.
I am taking this termination as a sign that I should maybe change careers , time for a new beginning. Jason said maybe I should look into going back to school and c complete my teaching credentials. I got accepted into a program with CSULB. I start in September , however with me being out of work I have to figure out a way to pay for it . Now Jason is bothering me about getting a job . I am trying but it is so hard , I applied for everything in my field and even went to a job agency. Jason is now telling me that he doesn’t think that I will make a good teacher and he keeps throwing job ideas at me .
Honestly I truly do not want to go back to work, I just want to stay home , clean the house And volunteer at the school for the boys . I just wish I could somehow when the lottery so I would not have to worry about money.
This whole experience has left me feeling so depressed and I am now questioning my role as a Mother and wife.
I feel that my husband is starting to dislike me, he is constantly teasing me and he tries to manage me and tells me I am not doing a good job. I just wish everything was different.