Candy Cane Nails.

So I broke  a nail while cleaning my bathroom . However I did not mess up my nails with my previous gel manicure.  I decided to keep my nails short and natural , as it is easier for me to do stuff .   I put clear gel on my nails and then used a Silver nail polish as the base and did full nail stamp on my finger next to  my pinky and a candy cane stamp on my middle finger.   I think I may just keep my nails short , as it a lot easier to do stuff without worrying about breaking a nail, it is also a lot easier to type and use my phone .  I am so happy that I have my natural nails back and that I am able to paint them and decorate them . 

The Apple Cider vinegar worked!!!  I now have nice clear nails, they are growing slowly though .  I got a new job for a while and I am hoping that I get a permanent position soon.   Everyone that I work with gets their nails done and I was missing my Artificial Nails .   I did a new set last night , and what is so funny is that last Thanksgiving I did my nails the exact same color with the same image on them.

Its been six month since I lost my job as an appeals and grievance coordinator for SCAN Health Plan.   I honestly don’t know  happened , perhaps it was my fault , but having a bad coworker who gets away with everything makes you think , hey if there keeping this person , no matter what I do they will still keep me.  Boy was I wrong, I better, I should of handled the letter right away when I seen it , instead of playing dumb .  I was over whelmed with so much work and the toxic environment caused me to just be plain lazy.    I knew that this case was going to get me fired and it did. 

I am taking this termination as a sign that I should maybe change careers , time for a new beginning.   Jason said maybe I should look into going back to school and c complete my teaching credentials.   I got accepted into  a program with CSULB.   I start in September , however with me being out of work I have to figure out a way to pay for it .    Now Jason is bothering me about getting a job .  I am trying but it is so hard ,  I applied for everything in my field and even went to a job agency.    Jason is now telling me that he doesn’t think that I will make a good teacher and he keeps throwing job ideas at me .  

Honestly I truly do not want to go back to work, I just want to stay home , clean the house And volunteer at the school for the boys .   I just wish I could somehow when the lottery so I would not have to worry about money.

 This whole experience has left me feeling so depressed and I am now questioning my role as a Mother and wife.  

I feel that my husband is starting to dislike me, he is constantly teasing me and he tries to manage me and tells me I am not doing a good job.    I just wish everything was different.